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Hey yall, aint been on in awhile...got 2,500 things to go through in my messages! Just figured I'd let yall know I'm alive, though all broke up.
I've come to realize there is something very wrong with me, I've known for a long time that I'm an adrenaline junky but never really realized how much. The past few weeks I've been tearin' it up on a 2 stroke Yamaha dirtbike, the other day I crashed on a 60 foot table top and broke my hand and jacked up my left arm, shoulder to wrist, got up shook myself off and went at it for awhile longer before heading off to work. Then I went out the next day and made the jump bigger. Then I crashed while trail riding and had my foot get pinned and dragged under the foot peg, tore through the side of my boot and ripped the bottom off and broke my foot. Got up, cussed a bit then got back on the bike and rode it off, hit a few gaps through the woods then left the trails to hit the big jumps again. Once I parked the bike I felt the pain
Here in about a month and a half I have some bulls to ride, I cant wait. I realized sitting here after getting all broken up I almost missed the feeling...kinda did miss it. Its wierd, the only time I feel really at peace is after the wild rush wears off and the pain sets in, then I'm worn out and content, the pain I can block out. But shortly after that, that contented state of mind starts to go away and that craving to get back on it comes back full force.
All last spring and summer I didnt have any access to get that adrenaline fix, thats torture.
But, I've come to realize I have a problem...and I have no intentions of getting it fixed!
I even found out I have a theme song!
I've come to realize there is something very wrong with me, I've known for a long time that I'm an adrenaline junky but never really realized how much. The past few weeks I've been tearin' it up on a 2 stroke Yamaha dirtbike, the other day I crashed on a 60 foot table top and broke my hand and jacked up my left arm, shoulder to wrist, got up shook myself off and went at it for awhile longer before heading off to work. Then I went out the next day and made the jump bigger. Then I crashed while trail riding and had my foot get pinned and dragged under the foot peg, tore through the side of my boot and ripped the bottom off and broke my foot. Got up, cussed a bit then got back on the bike and rode it off, hit a few gaps through the woods then left the trails to hit the big jumps again. Once I parked the bike I felt the pain
Here in about a month and a half I have some bulls to ride, I cant wait. I realized sitting here after getting all broken up I almost missed the feeling...kinda did miss it. Its wierd, the only time I feel really at peace is after the wild rush wears off and the pain sets in, then I'm worn out and content, the pain I can block out. But shortly after that, that contented state of mind starts to go away and that craving to get back on it comes back full force.
All last spring and summer I didnt have any access to get that adrenaline fix, thats torture.
But, I've come to realize I have a problem...and I have no intentions of getting it fixed!
I even found out I have a theme song!
Checking in
Been a couple months! Being a full time live-in Barn Tech (fancy term for farm hand :D) wears ya out, specially anymore for me. But I figured I'd check in with yall, let yall know I'm still alive! Also let yall in on some big news...Me and Twitch got a dog! I know that sounds odd, me and my dog got a dog...but thats kinda how things work with Twitch. Now this might not sound like a big deal to some folks, but to me this is right up there with having a kid. When I get a dog, I commit to 10-15 years of training, caring, working and loving that animal.
Any of yall who've followed along for any amount of time know how much I involve Twitch in my
Happy New Years
Its gunna be a good year :)
We're Back!
We're back in bidness! Got a place to live and internet and all that good stuff. I'll be around more now, and I got a whole lot of yalls deviations to look through to keep me occupied! :D
My Absence
Well yall I aint been around much in the past while as yall probably realized. It started out because I was broken up, then I healed and became relatively homeless. Even moreso now...
I aint forgot about yall! Just been down and out and roamin' around and havent had much chance to check in. Anyways, I'll see yall round.
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Glad to hear you're still about all in one piece and know how to get at peace.